We all have a story held in our womb.

I remember the first time I consciously connected with my womb, all I could hear were the words ‘help’ and ‘why won’t you listen to me’. At first I was afraid because I didn’t know how to help or what to do.

I stopped getting my period when I was 21; amidst a myriad of other health problems, an operation to remove my tonsils and a very challenging emotional time with a huge uncertainty in a romantic relationship and some secrets coming out within my family.

At this point in my life I was completely disconnected from my body and any sense of feeling.

When my period went missing I was formally diagnosed with PCOS and offered the contraceptive pill as the ‘solution’. Something in me at that time screamed no without knowing or understanding why. Listening to that voice within me was the best decision I ever made. I was catapulted me onto a path of seeking answers outside of the conventional medical system and began questioning a lot of what I had previously known or believed about health. I began a long and deep journey of working with and learning a variety of different holistic health practitioners and teachers. 

In the first few years I fell into patterns of eating disorders, obsessive diets, strict health regimes and over-exercising. I dove deep into trying to understand everything I possibly could about health. My actions at this point were coming from a place of control, not a place of love for myself. Of course things like nutrition and movement are an important piece to hormonal wellness and overall vitality. But I spent many years just focusing on my physical symptoms. Trying to do everything ‘right’. Trying to fix what was happening. This took me further away from being able to listen to my body and what she needed.

It was only when I had a routine operation on my cervix that things started to shift. I didn’t realise at the time, but this experience was extremely traumatic for me, resulting in total numbness around my yoni and huge resistance around intimacy. After the operation I started practising yoga regularly. It was so profound. It was challenging. It forced me to meet myself and the years of emotions I hadn’t been addressing. Layers of tension and heaviness started dissolving. I started to discover who I was beneath the layers of conditioning, beliefs and trauma that I had been operating from for so long.

The next few years of therapy, coaching, working with and learning from different holistic practitioners ensued. I was really starting to understand the mind - body connection. I started to understand there were emotions and stories stored specifically in my throat, heart, womb and cervix. Stories from my own life and experience, and stories from my ancestors lives and experiences, collective stories. I began to work with healing the chronic dysregulation in my nervous system and releasing the trauma stored in my body. I kept on educating myself about my body and my cycle and worked on building a relationship of deep listening and trust with myself. I started unravelling the stories behind my symptoms.

I spent the next few years understanding my past and the stories behind my symptoms, creating the capacity to feel, express and alchemise. Working on my self worth. Practising creating safety in my body and my nervous system every day. Bringing my own hands to my body to move through numbness, discomfort and even disgust to teach myself how to feel pleasure again. 

It has been complex and has required a lot of patience and learning to listen. It has taught me to trust in the timing of life, to trust in my own body and to seek the lessons within every challenge, and a knowing that the process of healing takes time.

Through embracing this work I have created a new foundation of safety in my body (a daily work in progress), found confidence in sharing my voice and expressing myself, attracted healthier relationships, built a solid sense of self worth, and increased my capacity and resilience to hold uncertainty and discomfort. My cycle is healthy and regular, and I feel a deep sense of gratitude when my bleed comes each cycle. I’ve learned how to feel pleasure in more authentic ways and come into a loving relationship with my body.

I let her guide me now rather than control her. 

I am in a place in my life where I feel deeply liberated in my experience of being a woman. In my emotions, my sensuality, my sexuality, my creativity, my ability to see the truth, my capacity to be with and feel it all, my connection to nature, my intuitive gifts and how I use my voice. 

I now wholeheartedly desire to support and empower other women to feel the same.

Through this journey I have come to understand that our wombs initiate us, they will keep on calling for our attention so we can return home.

We all hold a story in our womb. We all have our own unique experience. I am here to help you understand and embrace yours.